So over 2 months I have tried coming up with something to write about and I thought about everything under the sun from a life changing experience from the past to something as random as that particular bird that just sits outside my room's window that puts me into the 5th gear of panic attack everytime I want to look outside. Yes I have this irrational fear of birds, Ornithophobia if you want to say , the phobia even Sheldon Cooper has. Then I thought why not put all of it under one topic and write about something I'm exceptionally good at - Overthinking.
It’s crazy how you can get yourself in a mess sometimes and not make sense of it and yet not be able to think about anything else but it ? Yes that happens. We are bound to experience that sometime and if you are in anyway like me you'd experience that a lot often , even on a regular basis probably. If you don't mess up how'd you learn ? No life lessons learning from others mistakes. But it's a matter of concern when you don't learn from your mistakes and keep repeating the same over and over again. Okay that's something I have to think over and hopefully not overthink.
' Human Mind is nothing less than a death trap '
What the Human Mind loves is re-living situations you just want to keep in the past and it re-lives it with such compassion , you start rethinking your very existence. It's like a reel that's playing in the back of your head that's stuck on Rewind and Play. Rewind and play all the time. Even when you know there's no point in looking into the void of uncertainty , trying to plan out and predict each and every outcome , thinking , overthinking and excessively overthinking what could that lead to ? What could have that possibly meant ? The one question that's everyone's enemy WHY? It's not until you get a full blown panic attack and screw up everything far more than it already was, that you realize it was never a big deal to begin with. Would it be in your lifetime movie ?( if there's ever one ) Probably. But I bet it's not the climax of it and it definitely isn't the climax of your life.
Let's pick up an event and think about the possible directions it could have gone. If you didn't die. It isn't the worst case scenario and we never think about anything the same way we did when we did it. It's never the same thinking process. NEVER. And when we didn't put much thought about anything when it happened then why later ? But then the heart wants what it wants. And so does the Mind and it wants to overthink. Even if deep down you know it's not worth it. It's not worth beating yourself over it. But how much ever others tell you and you yourself too , it's not easy. It's going to make you wallow in self pity and drown in the pool of regrets. Just let it pass. It will take a while but don't skip it. Don't rob yourself from that. But once it's done just never go back there. Ever. And you will be good to go as with time everything passes. Everything.
